waiting for you......!!!!!!

 Days and months passed....... having seen you...;
what ever it may be, but i always felt you...

taking me to the right path which i cant decide.....
the time when i cant speak whats in my heart....!!!!!

months passed walking with your illusion,
talking and smiling with all the emotions...

today my ears heard something rare....
something which i could not bare....
yes.... its true...!!!!! yes its true....!!!!!
you are coming and that's true.....

my lips can't stop smiling...!!!!!!
my eyes cant stop syeing....!!!!!
its only about you that they are describing.....!!!!!

but the breeze will be angry.....
and flowers will become dry......
you will be away from me and that's what they don't desire....!!!!!

but you will be happy..... that's what i desire.....
than the breeze becoming angry... and flowers becoming dry...

i'll make them happy..... i'll bring there moistures.....
i'll bring them back to what u desire......

i just have a wish, and thats my life.....
please don't pass besides me..., without saying a hiiiiiiii....!!!!!!!

the angel that came to fill colours......!!!!!!!

   "With my first steps to the campus, i decided i would never make any kind of special relation with the campus. but the fate that rule us had something different yet a very usual life decided for me......!!!! 

               I was a simple ordinary girl who used stay a little reserved within herself... but as i said the fate never wanted the same... everything was going the same like a usual day but then came a day that turned my life to a new meaning may be to make me realize whats life or maybe to make be feel the real delight of life......

        Yes..!!!! he was surely an "ANGEL" he came in just like an ordinary guy but was not as ordinary as i thought there was some thing in him which attracted every one towards him. he was in real sense an angel in the heaven on the earth.... the heaven..."my college" he was a free bird in the heaven where every other person  was the working under the head with or without their wish.... he changed the blow of the wind... in the way every one wanted them to blow.... slowly and steadily he became the heart of our heaven..... everyone was fascinated by him so was i but not in the same sense he became someone special for me.....!!!!!!!

      It was the day when i realized what music is, what actually songs mean.......

      I was really confused was it right, was that actually "LOVE" or was that an"INFATUATION" that is filling my heart....!!!!!! is it right to fall for non other than my "TEACHER"---- Yes the real angel was my teacher...not very old....  he was just 3 yrs elder than me....tall handsome, and with good attitude and self confidence  first i started ignoring but from the moment i started ignoring him i was going closer to him in a real sense....!!!!!
     

Then one day i decided to make him my friend......, initially i started as a student, started sending some of the forwarded messages.... i was becoming a good friend of him..... but in within i knew i was cheating him.....!!!!! but as mothers used to understand our needs before we started speaking similarly our teachers can understand our thoughts before we start expressing it.... he came to realize very soon....!!!! he started  ignoring me cos he thought...." if he continued talking to me in the similar way then my feelings would get hurt....., being a teacher he should make his students walk in the right path.."but the more he ignored me the more my feelings developed for him....!!!!!!

Days passed living with my broken heart but there was no response from any one..!!! i was smashed cos i didnt knew the reason for why he was ignoring me.......

One day finally decided to lock my heart with my feelings kept deep inside.... started living within myself as before....
Then came the day when the winds changed their direction.... the heaven was crying..... the pleasant weather was turning dry.... because the angel was hurted.....  the angel always smiled in front of every one but was having tons of problems within him...... "HE WAS LEAVING THE HEAVEN" the news knocked my ears like some thing fears it was the moment i wished to be dumb than hearing such news...... but it was right......"the angel was going... the angel was going......" the feeling bursted in the form of tears.....!!!!!! but no one could see that not even the angel.....!!!!!! cos the angel was crying within himself he still smiled.... he still laughed.... he still spread the charm in the heaven.... but still kept the distance between us......he partied a lot... he made us cry a lot.... but still his place in every ones heat was something very deep......

 Finally the day came when he went away.................
with my questions unanswered......., with every ones hopes shattered...... we tried to stop him but but the heaven cant stop him........ he waved for us with deep hurt went away breaking our hearts.......... i too waved my hands i too gave a see off...... within my hearts my hands were stopping him but.... he wanted to go and he was going..........."

       MY DREAMS HAD A FULLSTOP.......!!!!!.
       MY HEART STOP BEATING.......!!!!!!
       MY EYES ARE STILL WAITING....!!!!!!
       TO SEE IF HE IS RETURNING......
       MY HEART IS STILL ASKING.......
       WILL HE BE COMING..????? WILL HE BE                          COMING....????


       

first feelings.....

                                    YOUR FIRST SIGHT.........!!!!!!!!!
 
I saw you when i was all alone.......!!!!!!
standing in the midst of the crowd, yet calm and quiet......

U seemed  to be just like an ordinary guy.....,
Passing besides me without even saying a hi....!!!!!!

Days  passed and nights were gone......
you seemed to be the same all these days long......!!!!!

was that your smile, was that your eyes...
was that your thoughts...... that made me smile....!!!!!!!!

you were in my songs, u were in my mind,

you were in my dreams.... that made me sye....
holding my hand, and wiping my tears....
looking into my eyes and saying "i m always yours"......!!!!!!!


 " i was feeling a very touched writing the poem.., may be cos it is what i felt about thy..
every words pictures out my true affection towards thy... i literally used to feel very boring when people write about there feelings for others, but now when i actually started writing it makes me feel so delighted...!!!! may be because now i started understanding whats the feeling for others actually mean.... once i started with the title... words started flowing like first showers of rain on the deserted land.....!!! 
     

moments of delight.....!!!!!

Waking up like lazy bones in the cold morning... i always think why to be so punctual in college why not take an hour of sleep more....!!!!!! first sounds interesting then comes a sudden beep.... "tick tick tick...." again a "good morning message" like a hot cup of coffee.... "meeting today at the mess with new crispy talks....!!!!
     
   then comes a sudden change in the day schedule..... " mom i'm going to coll. today, wont b able to drop u at grandmas place....."  college life is so delight... the 4 yrs of degree  is running away faster n faster as m liking these days more n more day by day........!!!! these are a sure moments of delight with much fun...,  little misunderstandings, and long lasting memories......!!!!
 
   now i really understand why everyone says" enjoy these days like never before... cos when they go you will really miss them........!!!!!!